When I saw you walking

Down the street just talking

With your friend laughing

It was what I saw in your eyes

We did glance a moment just a moment

Forever must have been just a second

And the sun crashed through that horizon

To light up your smile against all of heaven

I watched you walk away through the clouds

Into twilight while summer dew was mist

All I wanted from you was the warmest kiss

And I wish and I prayed and you vanished in the haze

As I stood in the dark under the moon

Just a ray of sun would come through

And I tried to find you but it got dark again

And I stood there feeling so lost

I watched the sun rise ‘cause it’s morning

Thought a shadow of you was in the clearing

But it was a deer without meaning

And anyway I don’t believe in love

42

Disturbed under ice and concrete

I never knew how his smile was sleek

Hippie slick how I should have kicked

Bit’ scratched but frozen in his grip

The deception of my fear

Threw me out of myself

Into made up world of missing parts

Asking what is whole? Complete?

Replete with disdain

Here I am hanging on a thread of pain

Where the hell was the “everybody else”?

Where the hell was night when day was bent by hell?

It was a week of fire turning my mind to grey ash

Where was baptismal water when the flame rose to singe my life?

43

Where, do you look back?

See a soul upon the rack

Laced with bloody lashes split flesh

Has its’ judgment curled into the mesh

Something of it wasn’t clear no not so much

Do you see the devil yet, in his clutch?

Can you feel his talons squeezing

A painful wretch slowly erasing

A damned old fool remembering.

44.

You left me twisting in the wind

From the spring to this third winter

And I live well on the wings

Of friends flown by, day to day