HEAVEN IS SHUT UP

There you’ve shut up inspiration and awe

Darkened a clear sky

And fallen mountain ranges with a single thought

With an ocean of dream now quiet

Hiding in its depth in the night

Hoping the sun never rises

Dare I whisper anything?

That time will not be the verse

That killed the gods

To show a river of blood

Quenching the parched earth.

Reflecting against heaven

A crimson hue of death pouring like rain,

Crocus raises his eyes to the guilty

Distorted by clinging tears

Sight is restored shedding their ocean.

Witnesses his enemies’ bloody hands

The tears’ missile screams plummets to earth.

The angels and demons poured from their dwelling armour

Are drained by the moments captured in the murder

They are bled by the guilt

As they Crocus’ sight, his discovery,

His loss,

His time,

He steps towards his lifeless love, kneels by her side

Brushing her hair from her brow,

Whispers finality to the last intrusion known

A brief look to the culprits and back to those lifeless orbs.

A death scream issues from him

Like an explosive crack of thunder

Making the earth tremble, swell and shrivels her form to dust

Floating a moment in air where time turns to rust.

Angels scream thundering pain

As their slaughter began.

From Crocus’ depth of sorrow

Heaven and hell has no tomorrow.

A pack of wolves, measure of his hate

Tread his heels and scatter to all places

His sword thus press onto artery and vein

Toppling columns and alters in the mansion.

His prayers shows no kindness or mercy

As angels fall in the dust, torn and bloody

His breath cold and vapour to air

Stands still in the dust of the murderous fair.

SERAPHIM

From the dust they left undone

They ran in horror into the fix

Hid a hoarfrost in thickets and bramble bones

Her ember spirit shone through the dark

Sailed into the night lit stars opened depths,

As only one could fathom in her lark

Pouring herself into all of creation.

Lovers Torment

She rose before me

Ember flower glowing light

The dark pushed aside

And stars fired bright.

The flesh of time within her space

Leaves me wanting with all my might.

The incantation of love and want

Pound my heart and tears at my soul

I reach through the distance and rant

Scream the spell with thundering fire and coal

Spewing flames at legions within my reach

Tearing wings off angels, child’s innocent breach.

As she grace the sail of night

And her fortitude spread like oceans

I am powerless to thirst her passion,

Falling to my knees cursing all in motion

Begging and threatening spirits to go

To leave this place loving this eternal motion.

This winter’s sparkle midnight freeze

Tears at the heart with wintery claw

Her passion, love and kisses turned to frost

Turns her being into the wolf’s natural law

Prowling the forest’s moonlit night

And search the remnant of her in spring’s thaw.

Heaven and Hell are closed and abandoned

I emptied the halls threatened the tenants

I burned their furnishings, memories and time

Chased their dust and dirt through the vents

I left nothing unturned, slashed or alive

I tore at the eyes of these last sycophants.

Now I brood over their broken bones

And contemplate the carnage to come through the gates of hell

They’re shut up and extinguished their fire

To hide in the darkness against the sound of the bell

As the ringing shatters and tears through their halls

The first of many is ripped bloody from his shell.

TRITE 

Here I stand amidst wintery solace

Frozen and cold my core and universe unblessed

Searing sight of pain through this disdain face

My vision from my empty guts in this unholy place

Raised my vengeance with heart and soul full rage to come

In the dark halls of this universe’s womb

I give fair warning with thunder shout and growl

Pushing deities into the darkness of this room

Knocking on their doors wrapping their floors beating windows

Decrees to empty heaven and Hell

Dragging out every strand from the loom

Strangling every bride and groom.

It is the theft of my heart’s passion and love

That brought me here wicked driven and cold

It is the annihilation of beauty’s searing petals

That’s bound me to vengeance and horror tales told

It is the extinguishing of her life’s eternal flame

That rages a fire through time against what angels stole.

BEAUTY’S DEMISE

I

She bore no malice to the world

Was the sun in any man’s universe

Her grace and beauty was flower petal unfurled

Drove men to their knees in eloquence and verse.

Her eyes bore every ocean of blue

And the thunderous storms of grey

Her wicked smile his eyes to hers she drew

Towards each other drawn to fate.

Every crocus she picked in spring time thaw

Another would bloom and children stood in awe

Feeling her touch softer than a summer breeze

Would soothe the greatest mountain quake with ease.

When she would love, oceans would rise before her

Her passion shook the earth and trees fell and bowed

Her ecstasy went deep into the ground and to heaven’s birth

Her songs of moans and sighs gave light strength above night’s shroud

But on dew kissed hazy hot summer morns

Angels and demons surround the aurora princess of light and love

Savagery driven hate tore from her that which life was born

Vanquished from her a light the world against this darkness strove.

In the moments of death, fervour and trembles

A light quickened to enlighten the murder of crows

The realization of time dragging them through the brambles

Collapsing to death’s dust, understanding, were struck by the same blow.

II

Crocus the grievous angel

Seen walking into hell

With pick axe dragging, ripping floor boards

A crow bar over torn winged shoulders

Wolf of hunger’s anger by his side

Ravenous growls at the scurried in the fire

Thunder comes from every room entered

Howls are bellowed from the torn beggars

His tears disseminates the deep place where they fall

His weeping groaned into screams shutter their bones

And they all turn to dust the floor of lust is purged.

In heaven fat cupid engorged in his own absorption

Weeps at the coming of his own doom

As Crocus climbs the steps to want and envy

Stairwells crumble into ruin and apathy

Crushing under his space like the ocean swells to the shore.

She is forever in his heart

Enshrined, kept and gilded

A place where it’s never dark

Her vessel in him with her essence filled

Left the moon its cycle to start

He spun the universe and took all of hell to the dark

He is man giving up his wings

To allay those that took from him the living heart

As she was love, life and light

Without such a kiss to soothe his heart he has but fight.

Upon the destruction and fall Hades’ last breath

He stands and drinks the scene, death eternal.

Walking through this funeral pyre of ruin and stench.

The remains of evil seeps into the ground gnawing teeth clenched

The fires are smoke into the cold winter.

As the ashes of Legions falls there nothing shall rise

When Crocus has slain the last angel

Ripped wings from this one’s back

With torn gore and sops of blood dried hell

Drips the carcases with the rest on mile high stacks

Graces his work with sad, sad, smile

And blames his lack of humanity on the breath of bile

Crocus plants the pick axe to his left

In tears throws the crow bar to a world bereft

With his hands beating his breast

Hollers and cries rips his ribs open to pain unfulfilled

Her essence freed and avenged

She weeps a gentle rain

Upon Eve and her Adam

As they are free from the confines of paradise

Heaven is abandoned

Hell is shut up

The balance restored

The balance is man.

UPON CREATION

I looked in your eyes

All of creation came to sing

As I held your beautiful face

In my gentle hands kissed you soft

And I remembered whence I came

We are both here forever

Before angels came or any other thing

I bore my sight deep into time

And held you from my gentle soul

And danced you round the universe;

Whence we came

They came forth from our dance

Into forever and more, the sun and stars

As I held you close and safe

Distance between us was nigh

And as vast as all of time

Whence we came

That which gave us life

Gave us forever and oceans of time

The angels and legions envied

Plotted and challenged this love perpetual

Gifts given from,

Whence we came

And they horrid little creatures

Came gnashing at the teeth to imprison

Subdue and quell the passion of creation

They fail time and again as we exude

And radiate through the place

Whence we came

He that was our beginning

Sadly created man and paradise

His being wasted upon eternity

Left us, angel and legions

To watch over his work, the place

Whence we came

In the moment his spirit penetrated

All this the separation began

The world of balance shifted

And light and dark became two

The place whence we came, was no more.

DARK CHERUBS I   

We held each other, as our dance,

Shaken by the world being torn.

I wiped your tears as you wept

This great loss and the place

Whence we came

Sank into yesterday buried

In memory became dark

Only our light shone for Eve

We saw her sadness and gave her Adam

A howl came from the remnants of heaven’s choir

And fury shook the rafters of hell

Heaven and hell

Were clamouring a storm of steel

Fire and brimstone

Stank up high heaven

They began to stone you

Never having touched hair or feathered flight

I shielded you and with the power of human passion

A word from breath beat them back

They scurried whimpered, recoiled

Falling over each other

Until the quiet came

I poured thought and pondered

Running my fingers through the lion’s mane

I forgave them and turned and looked

Into your eyes and remembered …

Whence we came…..

DARK CHERUBS II 

In your eyes I fell so deeply

Caught in the waltz of flames eternal

Stars and sun’s at my feet

In your arms aurora’s ribbons swirl

About us the crown of time be light

Fate and destiny above us bright

The kiss I give you loving bride

Gently raises the ocean tides

Stills the evening wind to a breeze

Makes the leaves quiver from those trees

And the mountains bow and shrink

Back from your soft lips our eternal link.

The ground beneath us rumbles

A prayer of thanks blessed by your presence

The kiss sealed upon you gave the sparrow song

Our lips danced upon the breath between us

Gave flight to the golden wing Monarch

Butterfly and moth

Love, life and light

Rose to the sun and stars.

The charge that came from the storms gale

The intensity between us gave thunder its light

And the gentle power to raise a crocus

Out of the frozen tundra.

I touched your cheek

And made angels sing their chorus

The look I gave you in love

Made hell grow dark and cold;

And when I whispered in your ear

Eve gave Adam his first kiss.

A tear of joy ran from my cheek

And you wiped it dry

Before it touched my lips.

The universe spun around

As we danced in its wake

Leaving life behind us to quake

And move the oceans and ground

We loved one another in a field

Open wide and brought starlight

To a shaded evening where dusk was our shield

And the sun burnt memories into the sky’s twilight.

CROCUS AND ECHO 

Thus wrapped in each other’s arms

Swallowed by an ocean of time

We sank drifting into darkness

Where we would be lost forever.

I walked forward under a cold winter sky

And left my wings drag in the blood of miles

Abandoned in my grief turn from her face

I wept with every step of pain in place

As I looked to heaven smoking from pillage

I saw her eyes smile upon this eternal sage

Avenged by creations own destruction

This death was creation only construct to heaven.

1970 (March 11, 2010)

Upon this winter’s bloom

I see you in its womb

There naught but sunshine

And all creation is thine.

You hold it in your hands

A new beginning with you I stand

I shall never run from you

Only encourage for thee to walk on through

To see the wonders that await

From the tumultuous starting gate

No more shall another hold you back

(Or make you quiet) let your voice a thunder crack

In the day you may walk alone

I’ll urge and bar loneliness to be gone

And if tears and distress harass

I shall dry your eyes and defend to the last

Upon this winter’s bloom

Somewhere in a quiet little room

I shall kiss thee softly

Hold you warm eternally

Look deeply into the forge

That fire in your blue/grey orbs

That heats the steal of ages

And breaks men from their cages

I hold you true of spirit and soul

Upon this winter’s bloom in the cold

I am but a moment whispered

And like dust, gone, brushed and feathered

Upon this winter’s bloom

I am left alone in this room

And strike fisted thunder at the walls

Whilst your name repeatedly I call

On my knees the distress kept from thee

Has wrapped its talons ripped to bone in me

I have no escape just torn wings

As in this state I am hung by a string

Upon this winter’s bloom

Piercing petals through the dark and bloom

This is the smile that remains

When I love across your eternal terrain.

Upon this winter’s bloom

Piercing petals through dark and cold

The last warmth from my lips cocoon

I want no other to caress and hold.

333

When I look at you

The love stirred within

Does not simply pierce mine eyes

The fire engulfs me whole

Burning an eternal mark

Into the twilight of Eve’s creation

When once we were

When once we were

Before angels had wings

And their chorus no hearts would stir

Their voices silent before the dawn we danced

When once we were

When once we were

Into the depth of self to remember

I’ve seen your face

And your eyes that curtain lace

I know your heart and soul

This fire I am, engulfs me whole.

When once we were

With dreams inspired did stir

I touched your cheek so soft

Kissing time away where age may never scoff

As you are youth eternal you are creation.

33

I am touched by you

In which depth draws my fire

This love you stir

Engulfs my being whole

I am touch by you

This rose which blooms in thorns

Pierces my heart forlorn

And empty my soul of words

I am touch by you

As the words you speak

I’ve prayed to hear from thee

To remember what was is and will be……

333

When once we were

Before angels had wings

Or heaven had hell

We kept between us a fire burning

When once we were

Before paradise had gates

We tore light from the dark

And gave voice to angels

When once we were

Before the darkness fell on night

We gave stars to heaven

And raised mountains to reach them.

When once we were

We kissed and split the universe

Gave angels their wings

And purpose before creation.

When once we were

We loved and ocean into being

And on its golden shore we lay

Holding each other eternally

3

This fire burns into my soul

And I am at its mercy

I cannot extinguish this flame

That thuds turns my heart to ash

And my tears return whole

This cycle crushes the mind

That so wants to love thee

But distance, this culprit

Is the enemy that really fucks me.

(Omission of prose 35 lines)

THIS CRUEL THOUGHT 

This cruel thought perpetuates the myth

The distance tears at my heart

The hurt rips a fire into the mind

And I am left a gut stuffed with stones

I am beaten

I am hanging thus by a thread

I am over this fire

With a single thought

This devastated my inner most being

I have stood at the shore

And welcomed the ocean at my feet

Watched the sun sink below

Witnessed the stars appear

Now night stands before me

I look upon the cage from which I escaped

The pain from which I came

Has never lessen to which I go

Stranded in freedom with no comfort from the know

I am a shallow man with no name.

THE SHALOW ROSE

When the shallow rose

Has no breath to take

And she withers from herself

Pales the color of her petals

Staining thorn to break

And stem to fold

I am weakened

Wanting to caress and hold

Some tears thus crave to soothe

The strain in her

My heart cries to bring

A breath to her quivering petals fold

And strengthen her resolve

To bloom in a jar on my window sill

There I can behold.

IN HIS PRINCELY STATE

In his princely state

Wounded heart and tortured soul.

She wipes his lips

Of the deadly kiss she stole.

Leaves him on a throne

Despair has claimed to cold.

She sees the foretelling smile

And the tears turned to ice,

Upon his cheeks struck so white.

Hates him now, as his stare

Narrow, cold and upon the floor;

No longer sees her beauty to praise

Only the stench of death does he raise.

In his princely state

His life spilled on the floor

Her madness damned them both at the door.

As she kissed him so from lips,

To cheek, and brow in an anxious state.

And in the tide and transparent state

Pouts and weeps at her loss

And bequeaths her life

To that pool of sorrow

Under the throne

Despair claimed so cold.

444

I’ve seen the flower she had been

The full bloom under the summer sun

I tore a small part of my soul

To shade her beauty from the sun

And wept for her not to grow old to soon

When the storms came to weather

I took my bones to shelter her bloom

Then the cold came and try as I may

It overcame me and I slept through the day

When I awoke she had withered

Into the dust of a desert wind

Swirled amongst others

Spinning in the breeze

And in my tears

DARK THOUGHT FROM YOU

My unhappiness makes my misery smile

Slaps my brains with un-avowed guilt

Twists my bowels with jealous lust

Where then in my life can I hide?

Because your eyes tare to the core

Rips the soul of my being in half

And sets fire to my eternal self.

4

When the gentle morning glory blooms

Her blue grey flower sunwards stretches

To grasp the universe in the loom

Climbing the banister out of the weeds and vetches

Further into the sun she reaches

To find her seat with the roses and thorns

Looking into the distance to the beaches

Another place she’d rather be and forlorn

When the gentle morning glory fades

In the midday sun with a last kiss

She withers closing morning the bloom bade

And becomes death, life has kissed.

.04

It is when I think of you

That the stars dim and the moon pales

When my thoughts ponder thee

The rose wilts and withers

When I wonder about your beauty

Mountains quake and fall to dust

But if I call your name

With that breath, all is restored.

.004

The wandering knight starless

Void of passion under a heaven

That darkness slew with thunder

Is on his knees in mud and rain

Asks the depths of sorrow

Which angel stole truth from his heart?

ARCHANGELS

When your lips press against mine

I devour your kiss with passion

The breath that swells in us

Fills an ocean within you

Whose waves roll to my shores?

Lapping up to my soul’s very depth.

My hand upon your heart

My kisses devouring yours

I search down across futile shivers

Your abdomen quivers belly heaving

And the sweet satin touch of your skin

My hands become hot over you.

I slide my fingers further

And discover the moist spirit of you

Into your depth I reach and touch

Your inner most self

I explore your kiss with touch

I penetrate further to be swallowed

I give myself to your depth

And feel your ocean swell.

From the depth of you I feel

A great rush of passion curl into me

I bare down into your core

Brace my passion against you

And prepare to receive your baptism

As I devour your Kiss

Hold you like there’s no tomorrow

Feeling your reach deeply into your self

That I may plunge into the swell

That wave that comes forcefully

Against me to caress my very being

The passion comes from the chorus of angels

It is their song that has this swell

Crashing and throbbing against me.

ARCHANGELS THE MOIST KISS

I remember our first kiss

I will never forget

I could feel your skin

Under the garment of day

And the heat that the sun

Radiated against us, still,

I could only be soothed

By your touch, silk and satin skin

Your long tresses

Hang over your shoulders

Like a cooling waterfall

Rushing into the earth below you

When I look upon you

Love quenched the parched earth

Where I stand now

Many blooms have come and gone

Where we stood together

Many gardens have been tended

Over a great season of courtship

The place where our first kiss

Danced between our lips

That was the day of creation

Before that time

There was only space between us.

I remember our first kiss

To the place where we stand now

And many blooms have come and gone

Yet we still stand

Even through this recent storm

Of mild upheavals in the heavens

The rain has brought

Has fed the sleeping tulip bulbs

The sun now warms the earth

Just like the kiss

I so well remember

Like the kiss I so well remember.

ARCHANGELS PONDERING

My heart ponders the moment eternally

This is the beginning of the rush

That swells against me

When I kiss you with devoted passion

This is the force that rolls

From an ocean within you

To the shore that I have become

For we together are the world

Within our ecstatic passion

From your depth reaching into mine

All things rush between us

And the beads of sweat

Decorate our flesh glistening

Under the stars of heaven

And another moment stands still.

MOMENTS

I am but a moment

Distracted by your beauty

The world about me

Becomes quiet and still

The world within me

Becomes quiet and shaken

The moment slides forward

Clarity is hazed by your breath

The movement ahead

Screams like a rose in bloom

The world’s perception

Sees the bloom wilt

As we stand looking at each other

Everything

Everything comes to a screeching halt

We waltz the distance

Stepping from star to star

And I devour your kisses

Look in your eyes

Reach deep into your being

Show me the way with your breath

With your sighing song

Guide my way

To the place where I can stand and be swallowed

By the ocean that curls

A swell against the very dance

My passion and love

Waltz you into the night’s starlight

I hold your body and sway your being

To the music of our universe

Swirl you into a pool

Bathe you with touch

Soar within you with life lighted by suns and stars

It is the cherished devotion

Of you that in your depth

That ocean’s swell comes crashing to me

And bids me welcome home.

XX

Soft kisses

Feathered to your cheek

A passion for your mouth

Like chocolate sweet

Devoured by lips as sleek

Passionate kisses

Waltz and dance in a pool of love

 It is taken and driven

Forceful in its surrender

Captivating never captured

Loving kisses

Are shared with equal spirit

Commune within the need of this moment

Healing the wounds

Forgiving error

Giving light to the dark

Give life to an aching soul

The only kiss that whispers

“I love you.”

THRONES AND DOMINONS

There is no once upon a time

The story’s beginning sinks before all of creation

Swallowed by the eternal

That was before stars shone.

Do you want to know?

From where we had met each other?

Do you want to remember?

When it was we knew each other?

Do you want to feel?

What it was that made us

Who we are today?

The coil time back to its beginning

And when the crocus blooms

Sink back into the earth

Let the tulip shrivel

To the dust of what was

And the forest fired into ashes

To the heavens drifts incense smoke

Let the ocean swell into itself

And turn rain back into the sky

Let the earth catch fire

And plummet back into the sun

Find me near, drinking the fire of time,

Let the galaxies tumble

And collide into each other

Back into inexistence

See the stars darken

And swallow the light of tomorrow.

Let it all collide against the chorus of angels

And back into the screams

That creation into play

Watch as Seraphim adore the two that were.

A praise that was creation, the peace torn,

And shove it back into creation’s throat.

Watch god swallow it until the sound of thunder

Leaves only the two of us

Dancing flying loving over the halls of souls.

Remember the connection

Of the infinite, the beauty,

Where god had given the power of creation

We loved the angels into being

We kissed wings upon their backs

For them to soar into the light of god.

We caressed vision into their core

And gave them voice to warship forever.

The Cherubim’s chorus sung out through time

To prepare the soil of things to come

We were the vision eternal

Filling the hall of souls

The eternal continue as we danced.

Then came the virtues on gifted wing

And danced and adored us.

They shone upon us and god’s light

Twirling and swirling our being

Into the depth of all eternity;

Separated us and tore us from each other;

Then……..

               All……..

                               Stopped……….

In a thunder’s quiet moment:

The stillness wept and the powers cried

A weeping in fear that all would end

As they all drifted into the dark

I saw you slain,

Slaughtered,

Lifeless,

In the light of my darkest moment.

I held you, raised you from your state

And poured your essence into the hall of souls

And the Principalities made finite,

Ending, closing, rendering all into nothing.

I looked into god’s face

One last time

He wept for what was.

He wept for what was to be.

He wept for his own end

And the slaughter

That was too torn……

He saw the tear that ran onto my cheek

And as it hit the hall of souls

God opened his mouth

And from it came a storm

That shattered the quiet of heaven

From the light and dark

Began its battle for night and day

And the universe spilled out from him onto his feet and he wept some more

The explosions of stars

Lit the path upon which I ran

And drew a breath

And slaughtered the angels of heaven and hell

Crucified winged ones and serpents too.

Demolished towers and walls

Putting out fire with blood

Closing up heaven setting the mansion a blaze

And shutting up hell pouring smoke from the fire.

I locked the doors and laid waste to these minions.

The bellows of smoke and dust

I poured my tears into god.

Turned away

I walked upon the universe

And tore myself open

And poured my essence into the hall of souls.

My bloodied wings and anguished breath;

I fell into the pit with my love

And humanity came into being.

Once when we were

Before angels had wings

We knew an end was near

And from the anguish

We would be together again

Within the hearts and souls we gave birth.

The one day soared with each other

For once when we were

I promised never to let you go

Yet could only hold you as soul.

Wandering the ages looking for your being

Lost in the hall of souls,

Into the void I fell through the ages

Hold you with soft kisses

Never faltering as the storm rages.

PART II

When time ceases

And the day collapses

The world is set ablaze

With hail and molten worlds

When the universe stops spinning

And I am lost pining

The quiver of your depth

That tears at my soul

To look in your eyes

A smile broadens upon my lips

I see a vision

Against this depth

That swallows me whole

And your beauty

Intensifies as time

Melts on my lips.

PART III

There’s a fire that beats

A flame against my soul

It strikes deep and my spirit bleeds

There’s a fire that beats

A flame against my heart

It cuts deep

And I bleed

There’s a fire that beats

A flame in front of me

It is you

Cutting me to the core

Before you and I poured

Empty and fulfilled.

When the blue becomes dark again

I am weathered before the sun sinks

And if it were night the stars

Would sparkle through the parted storm

Showing me you still think of me

As twilight disappeared so does a part of me

I reflect upon the single star I see

Shattering the night sky with lightning

I am struck by your image

And the thought of your kiss.

I am captured

I am lost

I am naught

Surrounded by nothing

Empty of life

Ruined of time

Weathered by ache

And cut to the quick

Left bleeding

And standing in an ocean

Unconscious.

My heart is the flame that burns

For you and lights your way.

I remember weather events

Like a favourite song

Reliving the moment long gone

To the dust of the past

As if yesterday returned

To have a second chance.

I have finally fallen

I have finally fallen from the high place

And hit the ground

Swirling dust about

My exhausted breath

My eyes glimpsed at your beauty

The last light of truth

Which clarity implodes like a bloom?

In a bright field of your happiness

I am taken into the swell of you.

The dark road leading to your kiss

Ventures through the mountains

Clouds and abyss of the nocturnal

Shifts the winds of fortune

Halts the pounding heart

Upon the hearth of your crossroads

It’s sad to say goodbye…..

Time spent flying from plains to peaks

Through the dark misty of want

Ernst in the need to hold you

The wet glistening path before me

Drove me screaming mental verse

Into the night scape silent in hurt

As it tears me to say good bye…..

The moments I remember are now tainted

Too much racing in the dark

The recesses of doubt have come to light

Exposed the frail torture of jealousy

And tore the wonder from my heart

Beats my soul into submission

And the hearth of good byes comes to conclusion…..

LOVE DIES  

On the cusp of morning

In a hall far from shadows

A bumble bee’s failing gasp of life

Chills the air to the marrow

As my thoughts race to you

Laying in each other’s arms so warm

With dream culled of mystery through the storm

Nothing rages the battlements

Nothing stirs you from sleep

And I remain cold in this misery so sullen and deep.

From pity I rolled the poor creature

Off its back into a stride closer to death

I think of the Hinton highway so dark

Black with rain and damp of night

No stars above to catch my breath

Some failure of destiny’s design leads me to light

As I fired my fortunes against a dead man’s theft

And empty my soul, mind and heart into the mountain’s breath.

As I inhale the moments breadth, depth and scope

You fill this useless need torn, frayed and broke

By candlelight this moth harassed the bee to flame her own wings

And by ironic dispatch she to this sullen song thus sings

I trudge to morning’s first light so grey

This hold more life in it than the skin of my face

And as I look to the last star of morn

I think of another and walk out of the storm.

FOR ……..

What would you prefer?

The scent of Lilac or that of a French rose

Wine red, rose or white

A verse of thee in such a contract proposed

Like a vision of words to canvas

My heart there exposed

Thus I ask betraying the stealth of my airs deposed

Will you share a coffee?

Palatable treat conversation

In a quiet grove of a café bistro.

SHE

I haven’t seen her

Since she left the tenancy of this world

And taken the furnishing

From this mansio0n of a heart

Left these feelings bare

Upon this cold inhospitable marble floor

To emote the anguish

In the echoed halls of my darkened past

A flame extinguish.

1985

Bloor and young

Concrete stoned and moving

Under a summer sun

Wondrous haze so fucking dazed

Glass and exhaust

Fibreglass traffic screaming

Lights and crash

As the hot shallow days

Move to Dundas

And the southern crap on young.

Remember being stoned there

Walking the hazy exhausted strip

Every step crawling out of the past

The sweaty traffic on midday torsos

Flowing to the rhythm of the rhyme

Beaten into the pavement by the frantic

I was the only flowing like a ghost

Through the grime, noise and self-absorption.

River of flesh leaching into the living

The inanimate corrupting progress

The present smothering beauty

And the towering shrinking under the afternoon sun

By the time I reached the cooling fountain

At Carlton Place

My affection burned a hole into the present

And I drifted into it

Like an Archangel to destruction.

I sat struck 4 PM overhead

The back of my neck burnt

My mind raw of analyzing your end

And I let sorrow for you

Pour from my pain.

From my seat here, where

Past present and future

Shit in the same fucking universe

Consider yourself blessed

When angels and demon

Incur my anguish

And rose petals my caress

When I rose to walk again

8 to 10 years had past

The idle wordsmith

Squeezes the bellows

Launching the first flame

Of poetic brimstone

To boil the murky brine

Of Ode and Verse.

ANGEL SLAYER

A line to a chapter

Dead air between us

A one sided conversation

The last dance was always mine

But alas you were spent

On him or the other

Like a child I’d only tuck you in

Comfort your weary mind

And set you on the next days

Horse and carriage to travel on again

Betwixt dusk and dawn.

THE RAVEN ANGEL

Red sun of an afternoon haze

Clamoured about city traffic in august braze

I thought, quenching my aversion to sobriety

How thick and obscene the exhaust is to piety

And inhale the depth the day

To catch the night.

I can’t believe I let it

Go on as long as I did

I can’t believe the pain

Of all the fucking things you hid

My brain’s brimstone fire

I deserve my fate so dire

And everything you conspired

Left the whole of us mired

In the crap, trapped in …..

Youshush behind the curtain

Like a Shakespearean Claudius

Youshush in the shadows

But by your side

Thinks he’s mischievous

Youshush egging on as child

To play aloud the cry distress

Youshush a coward in the background

Kept out of harm’s way

Always at his best

Youshush My darling will turn

Grey unkind and not present

Time will be the test.

DISEMBARK UPON NEW GROUND

Disembark upon new ground

New colors shafts of light astound

Things of change distant in disarray

Comes together in this the world kept at bay

We know time passes, it’s said and done

The halfway melting place is the bed then gone

We make our way head long into the horizon

Fall into the devastating hues of the sinking sun

Wonder not about fate ever last

Just repeat the soulful spell we cast.

Run into a second verse

Doesn’t matter if you’re there first

Just keep stringing the pen along

It’s okay if the rhyme isn’t strong

Let the water boil and steam

My fucking coffee requires double cream.

Watch the compass spin its direction

Confusion in a perfect circle startles

I set sight upon you, time’s a tussle

My north of balance it’s the equation

You’re catching my eyes shooting star

Your comet streaks a tail through heaven

When the universe is gone there you are

Coming against the blanket of night you send.

THINKER

The stroke of the last season

Snowed upon frost without reason

The cold was dark and empty of warmth

Kept in the cellar of winter’s tragedy

We buried this day with occasion

But the pale gave little reflection

They had no tears of sorrow to communicate

It was only show to pontificate

It had no purpose as their shadows sank

Into the spring dusk with the damp and dank

I wondered that day, if it would repeat

As there was naught here for memory to greet.

As the music of day ceased to be

Theirs seemed to exist with nothing to see

I placed the horizon from north to south

To return to the devil’s mouth

I saw the demon himself in tears no less

I comforted him, he had failed the test

Without slight of hand or trick of sleeve

Put him back next to Adam and Eve

See time that passes from artery

Flows like a river dwelling in flattery

I raise my sight from the frame

Glistening a smile to all that remains.

Little verse

A little verse

He’s prone to curse

You’ll make him worse

Leave him alone

A dog with his bone

King on his throne

Fuck the child has grown.

The tempest’s fury storms

Hurricane gales’ against my form

Feel the tumultuous beat of the drum

Heartening throb through the air of the mob

The guitars’ ripping chords.

Chainsaw the ear with feedback cuts

Basses rushing arterial thrust

Against a thickening atmosphere

Pounding deep within, riveting

Anchoring a chorus of thunder

Onto the soul, spirit tied

The essence of humanity bottled

Broken lose into the beast’s cage

Here you can dance and rant

As modern man really cant

AN ANGEL TORN

The thick heat rises from afternoon asphalt

Between concrete and glass tombs

Hazy white burning heavenly blue.

I

Huffs and wonders

The delirious thus ponders

The meagre reflection that feed

The state of mind full of greed

Empty the vessels of sex and labels

Decree the hex and fuck ‘em on those tables

The position is just a fable

While chording his song dies the minstrel

Choking exhaust and intellectual poverty

Your character’s bankrupt most would delete

Stand alone, huff and wonder

II

Huff and wonder

The delirious ponder

Thoughts sacrilegious

Mocked the malicious.

Huff and wonder

Cried the old fud mucker

Leave the girl seditious

Upon these banks oblivious

Huff and wonder

With nothing to conquer

You’re vixen vicious

Little bitch’s never capricious

Huff and wonder

Puff and plunder

Spend and pillage

You’re intellectually broke

You’ve emptied the silage

Huff and wonder

Puff and thunder

Ponder on things dead

Leaves you full of dread.

3

Driving the midnight traffic flow

Light of the moment flash and glow

Memories in the trust all recedes

Fade and dissolve this end I concede

Hair like a lion’s mane

And a face kissed by angels

She devoured a soul in the lane

Left the spirit body drifting in the channel

The dark in the 2 A.M. breeze has me bound

Has put my sorrow in a jewelry box

Laid my end of all things in the ground

And held my heart under weld and locks

There are gruesome moments in mind

Afflicts the depths of all that touches me

Renders my soul bare unto the grind

Abrasive salts of humiliation cast from thee.

Such a thing as tears, regret or honesty

You’re mired with decapitation and disembowelment

You’re exsanguination of truth and humility

You’ve fired them into the coals with want.

The entity you claim to be is my creation

The entity you’ve always been is a broken promise

On the premise you turned truth with partition

The fact I embrace with horror’s bliss.

Turn up the fire of anger with bellows of lies

And pour the flames of games and treachery

On your cheeks to melt those eyes

Back into the blue grey sky of eternity.

4

The truth is a verse most weighted of dread

Words stumble over tongue and lips

With tremors reverberate from toe to head

The darkness of tales it will eclipse

When fear is most turned bilious dew

And trust is a friend seen fiend in sight

All intuition has gone against what you knew

In the light of day you will rise to fight.

5

We’ve cropped and minimized

Reduced beauty of our reading eyes

To acronyms and broken words

Deleted thoughts of delight as absurd

Thinking out not through our maze

Where troubled waters have no bridge

Left one treated like a defrosting fridge

At the end of this text you sent.

I find myself perturbed with understanding bent

From the river’s edge where I stand;

Your thoughts be the bridge its breadth should span

But short was the reach across the waters

The abyss grew but few words

That made no matter.

SEVERITY

Brazen petal flutter against that flame

The hazed heat melts us up into the air

A little verse from hell thus melts the frame

Capturing the broken carnival in our affair

Cutting the pleasure we thus stand to endure

When we look on our souls these broken petals

Wilt and burn turn to ash twisting in the wind so pure

We are left weeping our skin sticking to metal.

JULY 13, 2010 01:00 A.M.

RED

The fire which once blazed unabated

Now sits seething coals and ash

Singed spinning whirls leave the sacred

Still, cracks and pops under this sash.

You’re a curse on my life’s mantle

Named as another hidden verse

T’was you my elder brought to this portal

Always under my skin soul mate first.

The eternal excruciating agony of life

Suffocated us each other’s bleated strife.

CHROMOZONE OF THE SOUL

July 13, 2010

Retrospection of the last year

Pondering the chains I hold

And the distance weighted is clear

Letting go will stir what never grew cold

Torn into starlight

Am a fire in the damp cold night?

Retrospection into the moment colliding

Memories fill this empty room

I want to see your eyes smiling

Where you sat cold air looms

Thus torn into starlight

I am fire in the damp cold night.

Retrospection forms urgency

My mind crushed into that malignancy

That boon forever tied eternal

From my heart to yours leaving mythical

And torn into starlight

I am fire in the damp cold night.

July 14, 2010

Night’s damp sinks into bone

Deeper onto the heart on your throne

Time cuts as truth shows your face

The last portrait in this Hollow disgrace.

The castle fortress of a hope unblessed

Now echoes of empty halls and rooms frosted stark

There is nothing but a feeling of theft

And the sound of my own steps in the dark

The last light from the western moonlit windows

And a torch dimly fired throws quivering shadows

Moon and mountain framed on the sill of night

My breath weights to have my back against this light

I walk away down a soundless hall

My mind ignites a fire and flames begin to crawl

Devouring the past, the present, the portrait

Ashes are blooms dropping petals from love’s forfeit

Each step echoed against the walls, pound a thunder

The heart dragging an angel’s corpse

Scrapping boned wings against the floor under

The echo of steps flash of light we are on course

Don’t be fooled dismayed the end begins a restoration

Be it known you have no place here nor do you belong

The river flow’s a course; the waters are cold and long

A natural resource through the fathoms of restoration.

Scatter the rhyme and the murder of crows

Pelted with bullets and bloody bows

Cherubs hung by the noose of your lips

Garrotted by your lies and mortal quivering quips

I look back into the fortress inferno

See the canvas spill its life to smoke

Curling shafts of fire around pillars to choke

Living memories asphyxiates in spasm and throws

From the smoke and ash has risen stone and mortar

The Canon stands bold in the rubble and torpor

An angel’s glazed look in his eyes

He shrinks into the dust as passion’s demise

No longer feels the breast its heart no longer beats

No longer press the artery nothing rushes through

No longer does his body hold passion or heat

I am cold, icy hands of neglect a winter’s dew

Here you think I’m left alone in the dark

I am quiet and still, perched in the tower breeze

Watching and listening behind parapet’s arch

I am turned to stone a top minaret in Bell-ease.

You are but shadow in the dark

No constellation or star to chart

I am riffled and shot in the sinking Ark

Left abandoned drowning in the waters of the start

I’ve come from the eternal

Pondered in an ocean till thought maternal

Ripped me through flesh and bone and cervical

Only to fall in the violence of the paternal.

THE REAPER

I woke this morning quoting Bob Dylan

Summer half gone the other bitten

I lay under epithet of doom and gloom

A slumber comes on me leaving breath no room

I am stone and concrete a monument soul

That will ever last time and the ferrymen’s toll

Rip lips and tongue from face to swoon

And quiet the gossip laughter humiliation croons

Upon the face of whom you loved in quest

And with the face of love smeared with its spirit of death

You’ve poisoned an eternal creature’s destiny

Rendered its last breath a writhing epiphany

Darkened by the wings you ripped from my back

Like the buck the prize was that glorious rack

“Drive us on.” To my sepulchre and waste land

Return me to my first thought of you

Return me to our first kiss hidden from view

Return me to that long morning drive

When hope was young and so alive

To a place of wishful thinking bloomed

And I first saw your smile under fates loom

Let me die and go back to that place we first began

Set it ablaze then and query where I’d been when time ran

Let me not in this place to question every smile

Every gesture, every virtue, friend or laugh infantile

I am trapped in this your void beguiled trickery

Spun like a top not knowing when to stop my minds bickering

Slam shut the door to all leave the future blank.

Rendering bitter waters I once drank

Return me; return me to where I began this sullen verse

That place, that moment, that kiss that made it worse,

Return me that I can look in your eyes,

Cup your cheek with my hand and sigh

Kiss you again and give up the ghost

Drift into vanishing sands of time and thought to post…

“Damaged and broken

There’s no defence

Healing or reference

Not a word spoken

It’s just the way I give up

Relent, my life is spent.

Damaged and broken

Everything else is left unspoken.